Were do the days go?

It's been awhile since I've written mostly because I can't stay awake long enough to write. First I could never sleep now it seems I can't ever stay awake. I don't know if it's a new symptom or just depression. Briana and my little sunshine moved back to CT. and it's so quiet without them here. We talk to each other on skype a couple times a day but I just miss holding her and having her crawl up on my lap. I'm sure she is having the time of her life getting to be with Daddy again but selfish MiMi is jealous lol.

It's getting closer to the time we get to go to the Mayo clinic and even though I refused to drive there and wanted to fly, guess who is driving?! I'm married 26 years and I still give in all the time because I swear men are worse then 2 year olds when they don't get there own way. He would be complaining the whole trip, if the shuttle to the hospital would be 2 mins late all I would hear would be" if I would have drove I'd have my car and we wouldn't be waiting"! I just couldn't handle listening to the whining the whole trip I have enough to worry about! Nicole is coming along to help him drive GOD HELP ME!!Just kidding Cole (insert nervous laugh here) If we get there in one piece it will be a miracle and I was really trying to save that miracle for the doctors to find a cure. I was really hoping Briana could go but with the baby it's just too much. This really ought to be a trip for the books. I plan on taking Xanax and zoning out for the whole 17 hours. Either that or I'll be on the phone to Briana bitching and crying the whole time how I'm never gonna make it there in one piece.

Well Louie is on leave right now and they are spending the week here so I'm trying to soak up the time I have left with them before they go back up for good now if I could just stay awake it would be great. Even taking another trip to the hospital for syncopal convulsions didn't help me stay awake, I came home sleeping even more. My days are flying by one into the next and I don't remember half of what's happened. I'm sad right now I feel like I'm missing so much of what is going on around me because I'm either asleep or I don't remember one day to the next.

I hope none of Briana's friends mind but I love reading your blogs, they make me laugh, some bring back memories of when the girls were young but mostly they make me happy that she has made a sort of a family up there. I'm glad she isn't alone and I know she said Kim sometimes reads my blogs so Hello Kim take care of my girls!

Well it's time to sleep again something new lol I'll write again soon with I'm sure some real exciting news (not) Love you Bran, Louie and My Sunshine Bella