OK well I gave it a shot alright, I tried to be all up beat till I went to the Family Dx and the Bitch told me that if she found out I was left alone with my boys at all and I passed out she would personally call Children and Youth on me and try and have the boys removed because I was putting them in an unsafe environment. Like that wasn't a slap in the face. For 25 years I have taken care of my own kids had a day care in my home taken in foster children adopted a child with Autism and a drug addicted baby and now I've become an unfit Mother because I pass out! She says I should only be responsible for me and no one else. Now you tell me what kind of Mother can just forget about her responsibilities to her children and put herself first. In my book those are the kind of mom's that should have their children taken away. So of course I start bawling my eyes out and she tells me I'm too stressed out! Really?! I didn't know that! A year ago I'm running around driving working out chasing the kids and now I can't stand for longer than a few minutes, I can't drive I'm in a wheelchair and your threatening to take my kids. Hm mm wonder why I'm stressed. Oh and by the way she thinks I'm a little depressed too... idiot!
So my wonderful daughter Briana did all the wash packing and got the house in order for us to come to CT for the homecoming bc I fractured my right hand on my last fall. I felt like a lazy ass but with Hitler Briana barking orders for me to sit every second I was afraid to get up to pee. Bless her though she was so stressed she got it all done and even packed the cars herself. God only knows how I am going to be able to do the two boys and keep the house going without her. Thank God Louie is such a great son that he brings them all home every weekend he can. I was actually getting worse than she was at the end I couldn't even talk to him on the phone without crying I really started to miss him. He has been apart of our family for so long now he is my son not my son in law and I missed being able to talk to him about being sick. About being afraid of whats to come the girls get to upset and don't want me to talk about it, but most of all I missed his hugs and how good he is with Jordan my son with Autism. Jor tells everyone that Louie is his best friend he just loves him so much.
Well its my last night here in CT and tomorrow I'm going to have to say goodbye to not just my daughter but one of my best friends. I never had that with my Mom so I'm so proud that I can say I feel like I can talk to Briana and Nicole about anything and that they feel the same way. Tomorrow is going to be so hard, I know it may sound dumb because we see them so often but after having them live with us its like letting them go all over again even worse because Bella is going too. I will miss having Bella wake me up every morning with her running into my room saying Hi Mimi up with the kisses and hugs and the I LOVE YOU TOO. I feel I have somewhat of an understanding of how these husbands must feel saying goodbye. Even though it's not 6 months for me it still breaks my heart saying goodbye and not seeing them everyday.
I'm very proud to say my son in law is a submariner not many men can do what he does, and I'm very proud of my family for being so strong with what they have had to deal with over the last year. I think I pray more for them then I do for me that the news is good in Feb at the Mayo Clinic. Especially since I just passed out and fell down Briana's stairs and twisted my ankle. She said she wasn't going to yell at me so I can't write about it in my blog lol but her red face said it all! At least she gets a 2 week break from me.
Has anyone heard of bubble wrapping your house?? Till next time lets hope for no more broken bones!
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